Tonight’s chapter turned out to be longer than originally expected because of all the time I’ve spent rewriting. Next week’s chapter is longer still, at least at the moment. I’m still debating whether to split it in two because I have enough material to do so.
I probably won’t, however, since I feel like we need to move on to Part IV. The downside is that I’ll need to cut it back some if I decide not to split it. That could make it feel kind of choppy and rushed.
In any event, feel free to weigh in if you have an opinion one way or the other about what I should do.
To recap, the boys discussed Jimmy’s reaction to the fashion show and seeing Bobbie dressed up like a girl in last week’s chapter. While clearly uncomfortable with the whole thing, Jimmy also realized he had been attracted to Bobbie and struggled to explain his conflicted feelings.
After that the two boys spent the rest of the afternoon together, first in the game room and later swimming in the pool. When it was finally time for Jimmy to head back to Washington, Bobbie gave Jimmy his card and told him he was welcome back at the mansion anytime.
In the ensuing discussion Bobbie made it clear he was looking for a best friend, an opportunity Jimmy jumped at given his attraction to Bobbie. When Bobbie suggested being best friends might be difficult if Jimmy became a full member of the club, Jimmy quickly agreed to seek honorary membership so he would have more time to spend with Bobbie.
We also learned why Del had only been an honorary member of the club for so long, why Bobbie had come to Jimmy’s rescue when he lost the special drawing to Del, and how that eventually worked out. It’s another story entirely, but let’s hope it wasn’t too painful for little Ryan 🙂
On the drive back to Washington Jimmy ended up berating himself for being too judgmental. He seems to realize, if only belatedly, that not everything he learned growing up in North Adams is necessarily true; that being gay, like being straight, is neither right nor wrong in itself. That a lot depends on how you treat other people.
In the end, realizing how much he likes Bobbie and wanting to spend more time with him, it seems like Jimmy is becoming more comfortable seeing himself as part of the gay community; though he doesn’t seem quite ready yet to admit everything that implies (and what seems obvious already to the rest of us).
It’s a delicate balancing act for Jimmy, one that could go either way.
Tonight the story moves forward from March to May. More relaxed, Jimmy will begin enjoying Washington more as well, some of his old fears replaced by new concerns.
How all of this will turn out for him remains to be seen, but tonight’s chapter, which I’ve now posted at The Annex, will set the stage for the conclusion of Part III next week.
Have fun reading.