I’m getting married!

Posted: April 1, 2015 in Author Comments


Okay, maybe not :-)

But that’s only because none of you proposed!

In any event, I’m back and feeling pretty foolish today. Having spent most of the past month reviewing the story I’ve been thinking about sharing with you, I still don’t know how I feel about it.

That’s frustrating.

But I need to get off the dime and make a decision so I’ll probably go ahead and post it despite the concerns I have. Whatever else I think, there are definitely parts of it I love and hopefully you will as well. Besides, it’s not like you’ll be out a ton of money if you end up not liking it.

When to post it is another question entirely, of course. I’m thinking I’ll probably start sometime around the middle of July. Because even without having to worry about any wedding plans, there’s still far too much going on in my life to get it up before then.

Hey, dude, get your mind out of the gutter. I’m not talking about that!

In any event, I’ll try to post a brief synopsis of the story that doesn’t give away too much between now and then, perhaps sometime in June; and I’ll probably send out an e-mail announcing the story sometime in the beginning of July to those of you who gave me an e-mail address. If you need to update your e-mail address, let me know.

In the meantime, have a nice spring and feel free to propose whenever you want.

Tell me what you have planned for our wedding night.

Perhaps that’ll provide some needed inspiration for still another story :-)

oh my :-)

Kit comes in from playing in the snow :-)

As promised, I’m back with another update although it’s not much of one. Since last checking in a couple of weeks ago, I’ve been working entirely on that other story I mentioned in my previous post, not the one I’ve been thinking of sharing with you.

That’s one of the strange things about writing, at least for me. Usually I work on whatever I have the clearest vision for at the moment. Right now that’s one of the tales I’m thinking of writing for something I’ve tentatively titled The Liberation Anthology: Tales from the Revolution.

As the title may suggest, The Liberation Anthology is planned as a series of loosely connected tales chronicling the gay liberation movement in America from the pre-Stonewall nineteen-sixties up to the present time. The focus will be primarily on the period after the Stonewall riots in 1969 when the liberation movement is generally perceived to have taken off.

The stories in the Anthology wouldn’t be a chronological history of the people and events who led the revolution, at least not in the traditional sense. Instead, I see the stories more as an emotional and psychological history of how people responded to what was happening around them.

People aren’t always aware when something important begins. They’re busy leading their everyday lives, sometimes far too busy to appreciate the significance of something like the Stonewall riots; and then a new generation comes along that lacks historical consciousness. Stonewall; what was that?

That’s certainly been the case for me; not being there, I didn’t realize just how important Stonewall was. I had read about it, of course, but it was only from talking to other people that I realized its significance; and yet many of those same people were the first to admit they didn’t know how important Stonewall was at at the time.

So even though a revolution had begun, people responded to being gay in the same old ways. Before people realized it was okay to be gay and proud, others experienced a range of emotions from guilt and denial to self-loathing and shame.

In short, people didn’t get liberated all at once. Some still don’t.

That’s the story I would like to tell at some point through a series of loosely connected tales. It’s an ambitious project and I doubt whether I could ever complete it as currently planned. But I like the idea and for the last couple of weeks I’ve been working on just one of the many potential story lines I’ve developed for the Anthology.

Partly I wanted to see whether that’s something I could write about in a convincing way. I thought writing about the past would be harder than writing about the present; in fact, it turned out I had a clearer vision of the past than the present.

But would the story work as a stand-alone tale? If not, could it be connected to another potential story line that would form a more coherent whole? Or would I have to wait until all the tales were written and publish it as what I had planned, i.e., an anthology?

It’s too soon to say for sure, but I’m reasonably satisfied with what I’ve written. If you saw it, you would probably say the ending is unsatisfactory and that might be the case. But then again not every story in life has a satisfactory ending.

I may post more about all of this within the next month so keep your eyes open. I would probably be doing so to see if you had any story lines you would like to suggest for such an anthology. Bedsides the ones I’ve mentioned (guilt, denial, shame and self-loathing), are there others ways people responded to the discovery they were homosexual fifty years ago?

For now, however, I should probably be getting back to that stand-alone story I mentioned in my last post. Taking a break from it has been good; hopefully I’ll come back to it with a fresher set of eyes.

I was a little surprised that no one had any questions about it, even the simplest: what’s its name? when does it take place? where? what’s it about? But not many people saw that last post, of course, just those of you who get notified whenever I post something new.

I didn’t send out an e-mail to my (small) mailing list so it’s hard to know if I’ve completely lost whatever audience I had. But I suppose I shouldn’t let that deter me. I write for myself mostly, not an audience.

The bottom line is I plan to spend the next month looking at the story, deciding whether I’m satisfied enough to post it online, and when I could realistically do that.

As I’ve mentioned before, there’s still a lot of work that needs to be done once I’m happy enough with a story to consider publishing it. I have to translate it into the html and pdf formats for one thing; then get it uploaded to WordPress. I have to write a synopsis that will give you some idea what the story is about without giving away too much; and then I have to design at least one image to illustrate the synopsis.

I also need to do my best to have a real life in the process, something that involves tasks large and small. Uncle Sam wants his share of all those royalties I earn from these stories, for example.

Oh yeah, I forgot; I don’t have any royalties :-)

But I still have to file a tax return on the money I earn to support my writing; and to pay for that benevolent military-industrial-espionage complex that’s keeping folks like you and me and Rudy Giuliani safe from the TERRORISTS. I suspect they don’t love Rudy either. Does anyone?

Plus there may be one or two other things I’m interested in. Do you really think someone who writes stories like mine is completely indifferent to all those cuties frolicking around outside building snowmen like those two up above?

So all of that takes time; and I’m going to be disappearing from civilization for a while in June as well. But I’ll try to post again by April 1st at the latest to let you know definitively whether I’ve decided to go forward with the new story or to put it back under wraps and focus my attention elsewhere.

If I do decide to go forward, I should have a better idea what the timeline for the new story might look like then as well.

So that’s it for today. I hope you’re not too disappointed. If you are, the good news is that not many of you are because very few people saw the last post. I doubt more will see this one.

But that’s okay too. Like they say, sometimes less is more.

My Valentine . . .

Posted: February 14, 2015 in Author Comments

with love from kit

Happy Valentine’s Day, everyone!

I’m back, at least for today; and what better day to put in an appearance than St. Valentine’s Day. If nothing else, I want to encourage everyone to be sweet to their sweetie today; and if you don’t have a sweetie to be sweet to, feel free to be sweet to me by sending me a Valentine’s Day message.

It’d be nice to hear from some of my old friends and to make some new ones as well. So feel free to click on that E-Mail Me link at the top of this page and whisper sweet nothings to me :-)

But my main reason for posting today is to let you know I’ve been working on a new story I may share with you later this year; assuming it’s good enough, of course. I’m actually working on two new stories, but one of them is way too ambitious and will probably never see the light of day, at least as originally conceived.

But it’s definitely hot, no doubt about it!

The other story, the one I’m actually thinking of posting, is a love story, but one without very much sex; and if I’m being perfectly honest, it’s not really a new story at all. It’s an old story I abandoned more than a year ago because I was having problems making it work.

Although shorter than Connected and Summer Boys, Summer Dreams, there’s a lot going on in the story. I was having trouble keeping all the balls in the air and bringing them to a successful resolution.

Recently I decided to take another look and decided there were just too many characters I loved to abandon the story entirely. Setting to work, I tried to see whether I could solve some of the problems and I think I have, at least to some degree. I’m hoping I’ll be able to whip it into shape for publication sometime later this year.

Didn’t know I was into whips, did you?

Kit giggles.

Just kidding, people; I’m not into pain myself, at least not too much. I prefer teetering on the precipice between pain and pleasure, sometimes leaning one way, sometimes the other. And that’s kind of how I feel about this new story right now.

Sometimes I think it’s worth sharing with you; other times I’m less certain of that. That’s the problem with being as close to the story as I am. I’m not a very good judge of its merits.

By now you may be wondering what the story’s about. I wish I had a simple answer for you, but I don’t. For now let’s just say it’s about dreams, hopes and fears; about being poor and being privileged and how things like that shape our choices in life.

It’s also about working for a living and going to school, selfishness and altruism, families large and small, and friends true and false.

But mostly it’s about being young and gay and falling in love for the very first time; and then finding the courage to risk everything by revealing yourself to the person you love without knowing how things will turn out.

The question for me is whether anyone is still out there who cares one way or the other about a story like that? If there is, feel free to let me know, either by posting a comment below or sending me an e-mail; and if you’re still out there and have any questions about the story, feel free to share those as well.

I’ll collect any questions you have and do my best to answer them if I can do that without giving away too much; and if there’s no one out there and no questions to be answered, I’ll just slink away again and go back into hibernation. I’ve got plenty to keep myself busy :-)

You can look for another post from me by March 1 at the latest. In the meantime, have a Happy Valentine’s Day and be sure to remind the people you love that your love for them is the thing you cherish the most.

Say it in words, of course, but show it in deeds as well.

Need a hint?

I’ve posted a clue below :-)

sexy feet

Welcome …

Posted: June 23, 2014 in Author Comments

Welcome to the Café Palermo. A couple of years ago I decided to publish some of my stories online. Originally I had planned to post them here, but later I changed my mind and moved them over to The Annex.

This site became mostly a blog for some of my online ramblings about this, that, and the other thing. I used to post here fairly regularly, but eventually came to realize just how rigged the American political system is against meaningful change.

In truth the system exists to serve the rich and the powerful and to keep the rest of us in check through continuous surveillance by agencies like the NSA. The difference between the two major political parties are at the margins and only certain points of view are tolerated or permitted by the mainstream media, which are only interested in elite opinion in any event.

Don’t believe it? Just check out Meet The Press, Face The Nation, and the rest of the Sunday morning talk shows. Do you really think anyone with a truly alternative point of view gets invited to appear on those shows? What we get are the same old tired voices committed to the status quo in America and protecting their privileges.

So I’ve pretty much given up on blogging and the American political system and should probably merge my two web sites. At the moment, however, I’m on an extended vacation and too lazy to do something like that so you’ll have to settle for this modest update.

But if you’re gay or gay friendly and like reading free stories about people like yourself, I would encourage you to visit The Annex. You’re also welcome to read my previous blog postings, but I doubt you’ll find them as interesting as the stories :-)

Whatever the case, thanks for stopping by. If you look at either the stories or some of my blog postings, feel free to drop me an e-mail to let me know what you think. I always like hearing from new people, whether they live in America or elsewhere.


Posted: May 22, 2014 in Author Comments

sad and embarrassed

What else is there to say about passage of the USA Freedom Act today by the House of Representatives? Like so many previous efforts to reign in the excesses of the intelligence community, what started out as an effort to end the bulk collection of data about Americans has now morphed into still another legal rationale designed to justify those abuses.

I doubt anyone is paying attention to any of this, especially as we head into the Memorial Day weekend here in the United States, so I won’t go into a lot of detail about what happened today in Washington. You can read more about that here, here and here. The main thing to avoid is deluding yourself into believing this is a step in the right direction as so many of the news stories in the mainstream media are attempting to portray it.

In reality, this is just another effort to provide new legal authority for the NSA to continue business as usual in the event it’s not able to secure renewal of the legal authorities it has been relying on, which are set to expire next year; and, as usual, Barack Obama was the cheerleader in the effort to defang this new legislation of any meaningful reforms.

To me Obama is the worst Democratic President in a century and perhaps the worst of all time. Along with George W. Bush, he’s done more to destroy what America once stood for and one can only hope history will judge him accordingly.

For those of you who care about things like this and may be still reading this blog, here is a link to how the different members of the House of Representatives voted today. A yea vote is a vote to permit the NSA to interpret the legislation any way it choose so don’t be surprised if your congressman is among those who voted once again to gut the Fourth Amendment to the Constitution.

In the event you forgot, the Fourth Amendment reads as follows: The right of the people to be secure in their persons, houses, papers, and effects, against unreasonable searches and seizures, shall not be violated, and no Warrants shall issue, but upon probable cause, supported by Oath or affirmation, and particularly describing the place to be searched, and the persons or things to be seized.

Epilogue . . .

Posted: April 21, 2014 in Author Comments

going, going . . . gone

Tonight is about a couple of things. For one we’ll catch a a glimpse of what the future holds for Ethan and Hunter, but only a glimpse. Not everything will be decided by the time you finish reading the Epilogue. There may be some things you’ll be left wondering about and that’s the way it should be.

What fun would it be after all if we knew everything that’s going to happen in the future . . . to Hunter and Ethan, D.W. and Brady, Cameron and Zachary, Gina and Marie, or to all of the other characters we’ve met along the way like Riley and Dennis?

Tonight is also about saying good-bye, at least for now and perhaps forever. It’s been fun sharing my stories with you, but life is filled with lots of exciting things and there’s never quite enough time to do everything one would like. I enjoy writing, but there are many other things I enjoy as well so I’m kind of like the characters in my stories. I’m not sure exactly what’ll come next.

In a couple of weeks I’ll probably post an updated welcome message so that any new readers who stumble upon this site will have a better sense of what it and the blog are about. If you get a notice from WordPress saying I’ve posted a new message, you don’t have to stop by to check it out. But you’re always welcome to stay in touch, of course, and you’re also welcome to stop by at any point and take another look at the stories.

I’ve never done it myself so I have no idea how they hold up on a second reading. But I’m planning to leave them up for now and I’ll definitely let you know if I ever decide to take them down; and I also understand there may be a few people who’ve been waiting for the story to finish before reading it. If you’re one of those, I would be interested in hearing from you once you do.

Thanks again for reading my stories, for your encouragement and support, and for being such a faithful audience. I did my best with this story and I’m glad you made it this far with me.

In any event, have fun reading the epilogue. You can find it here. It begins with a newspaper story so pull up a chair, sit down, open your paper and read on; and, as as always, feel free to let me know what you think.

Chapter 48 . . .

Posted: April 14, 2014 in Author Comments

red sky at night . . .

So this is it, the final chapter of our little saga of baseball and love. Like I’ve mentioned before, I tend to prefer my endings understated; although when I finished the original draft of this chapter, I recall thinking it was probably too understated. That’s why I pulled together an epilogue and you’re welcome to come back and read it next week if you’re looking for an ending that’s a little more exciting and to learn a bit more about what happened next.

For now I’ll just thank you again for reading the story. I appreciate it; and I would also like to say a special word of thanks to everyone who commented at any point or sent me an e-mail letting me know how you felt about our tale. It’s the only reward I get for the time invested and I thank those of you who let me know what you were thinking.

Speaking of e-mails, this is my final call for yours should you wish to be notified if I decide to publish any more stories online. Just send me an e-mail and let me know you would like to be added to my mailing list.

In the meantime, Chapter 48 is up. You can find it here. Have fun reading; and, of course, it’s never too late to let me know what you think. It would be nice to hear from you.

Chapter 47 . . .

Posted: April 7, 2014 in Author Comments

going home . . .

So we’re getting pretty close to the end of the story and I realize everyone is anxiously looking for a particular ending and that would be nice I suppose. But if you’ve read my other stories you’ll see I’ve tended toward understated endings in the past, not dramatic ones.

That’s partly because endings are only endings for us, not for the characters themselves. To be sure, we stop peeking into their lives, but their lives do go on; and sometimes, if we’re fortunate, we may even catch a glimpse of where their lives are headed.

The other important thing to remember about endings is that they happen on their own schedule, not ours. They can’t be rushed and require patience. Tonight’s chapter is not the ending, but it does move us close to the end. Recognizing what it isn’t, try to enjoy it for what it is.

With that I’ll just say I’ve posted Chapter 47. You can find it here. Have fun reading and thanks again for sticking with me through what’s turned out to be a rather long journey.

Chapter 46 . . .

Posted: March 31, 2014 in Author Comments

serious too :-)

I’ve been in and out of town the last couple of days and probably won’t be home until a little later this evening, but hopefully you’re reading this post and we’ve scheduled Chapter 46 to appear at the usual time.

There’s a lot going on in my life at the moment and I haven’t been able to spend as much time as I would have liked editing this week’s chapter. Nor has my young friend, the budding author, so it may be a little rough, especially since I’ve had to make some adjustments to the chapter based on what was deleted earlier. Like the saying goes, it is what it is.

It’s probably also time for me to start thinking about revising and updating my mailing list. I never used to have one of those, but I pulled one together after Nifty decided not to publish Summer Boys, Summer Dreams. I think that’s how some of you learned about this story; and while the current list is not very comprehensive and I’m not planning on posting another story anytime soon, you never can be certain what life has in store for you.

The point is that now is the time to revise or add your e-mail address to the mailing list if you want to be sure you’ll be notified if I eventually decide to post another story online. You can do that by e-mailing me directly. You’re also welcome to have your name removed from the list if you like.

I don’t sell the list or share it with anyone; the only thing it’s ever been used for is to let you know I’m about to publish another story online (and I’ve only done that the one time). But you’re also welcome to subscribe here or over at the Annex to get notices whenever I post. WordPress maintains those lists, not me, and I’m not promising I’ll be posting either here or at the Annex very much.

But I am planning to leave both sites up for now. If I change my mind about that, I’ll give advanced notice before taking them down. So that’s another way of staying in touch that doesn’t require you to give me your e-mail address if you prefer not to do that. Or you can just check back here or at the Annex on your own periodically to see if anything new is in the works.

In any event, Chapter 46 is up. You can find it here. Although I plan to publish an epilogue that I personally think will be worth reading, this is the first of the final three chapters.

but not really funny

March 27 update: The Washington Post is reporting today that President Obama and his cronies are looking for quick action by Congress to approve changes in the bulk data collection program that spies on you.

“We really hope that the Congress can act swiftly,” it quotes a “senior administration official, who spoke in a conference call with reporters, but on the condition of anonymity.” This is the way Obama does things. He doesn’t have the guts to come out publicly and say what he wants. But that doesn’t really come as a surprise I suppose.

In any event, this should tell you two things. First, the Administration is lying again. If it wanted to end the bulk data collection program, the President could do it today. He could just tell the NSA to stop collecting the data. But Obama didn’t do that. Instead, he authorized the program’s continuation for another ninety days and now he wants Congress to pass “reforms” the Administration refuses to spell out in detail so you can actually see what they amount to.

The other thing this should tell you is that neither Obama nor the Administration are looking for serious reform. They want to stampede Congress into enacting “reforms” that may not be reforms at all, but an effort to actually expand the program. See the original post below for more on that.

The point is the Administration understands that a serious, genuine, and prolonged debate of these matters would be embarrassing to it. That’s the reason it’s pressing for swift action.

We’ll have to see what Congress does in the days ahead, but don’t count on it to stand up to the President or to pass real reform. All of these clowns are part of the same cabal who continue to rape the Constitution every day. They don’t give a shit about your privacy or your security. They only care about stampeding Congress into ratifying something that will likely expand their spying authorities.

Like I’ve said below, if their lips are moving, they’re lying to you. And you need to tell your own Representatives and Senators to find some backbone and stand up to the Administration. The way to do that is through prolonged hearings that get all the facts out on the table. Anything short of that is a disservice to you and to the very idea of what America is all about.

March 25 original post

You may have seen a lot of stories in the press today about the latest set of alleged reforms designed to reign in the National Security Agency (NSA), one from President Obama and another from the chairman and ranking Democrat on the House Intelligence Committee. If you have any sense at all, you’ll take most of what you read with a grain of salt.

Obama’s proposals come from the NSA itself and Attorney General Eric Holder, one the worst Attorney Generals in memory. Obama assigned them to come up with a new set of reforms after he had rejected another set of reforms from an earlier group of hand-picked toadies. Do you really trust people who have repeatedly raped the Constitution and lied to Congress to come up with serious reforms?

The other set of proposals come from Congressmen Mike Rogers (R-Michigan) and Dutch Ruppersberger (D-Maryland), the chairman and ranking minority member of the House Intelligence Committee. Rogers is an especially odious and loathsome creature. He’s been the NSA’s biggest defender in the House of Representatives and has a long history of lying about matters large and small.

Rather than overseeing the intelligence community, he prefers to spend his time slandering Edward Snowden, one of the genuine heroes in this whole debate. Nothing these two clowns propose will ever pass the laugh test.

By the way, it’s important to recognize that neither Obama nor Rogers & Ruppersberger have an actual legislative proposal we can look at. What we mostly have is their own self-description of their proposals leaked to a selective group of friendly reporters who are mainly cheerleaders for the intelligence community.

What’s beyond doubt is that the bulk data collection program will continue under both sets of proposals. The data itself will reportedly be held by the telephone companies and be made available on demand. Under the proposal from the two congressional clowns “the government could search data from those companies based on a reasonable articulable suspicion that someone is an agent of a foreign power, associated with an agent of a foreign power, or in contact with, or known to, a suspected agent of a foreign power.”

This actually seems to be an expansion of the NSA’s authority as its current phone records program is restricted to a reasonable articulable suspicion of terrorism.

Wondering what a “reasonable articulable suspicion” is? It’s not probable cause, that’s for sure. It’s just a phony, made up term that means someone in the NSA thinks you may be involved in terrorism and is willing to say that out loud, nothing more.

It’s basically a stupid attempt by the government to make you think there is some elaborate standard in place against which suspicion can be tested. But that’s just another lie from a government accustomed to lying to the American people all the time and anxious for something much looser than probable cause.

Equally important, “a judge would reportedly not have to approve the collection beforehand;” and “the language suggests the government could obtain the phone records on citizens at least two hops away from the suspect, meaning if you talked to someone who talked to a suspect, your records could be searched by the NSA” as well. All of that is from The Guardian, which apparently has seen a draft of the Rogers/Ruppersberger proposal.

The Guardian goes on to note that “the administration’s plan would supposedly end the collection of phone records by the NSA, without requiring a dangerous new data retention mandate for the phone companies, while restricting analysis to the current rules around terrorism and, importantly, still requiring a judge to sign off on each phone-record search made to the phone companies – under what the New York Times described as a new kind of court order.”

But, again, we can’t be sure of anything really because the actual legislative proposals are not available for review. Indeed, if the Los Angeles Times is correct, the bulk data collection program might actually expand exponentially under Obama’s proposal.

“The National Security Agency would lose its authority to collect and hold years’ worth of telephone calling records but gain access to cellphone information it currently lacks under an Obama administration proposal aimed at quieting controversy over the spy agency’s data archive,” the Times reported today.

It then went on to explain in more detail: “Most importantly, it [the Obama proposal] would expand the universe of calling records the agency can access. After months of suggesting that they were collecting all the calling metadata, U.S. officials disclosed last month that a large segment of mobile phone calls were not covered by the program, and that as a result the NSA may only collect 30% of all call data in the country.”

Under Obama’s new proposal, everything would be collected, stored and available for review. In Obama speak, that’s what’s known as change you can believe in. The fact that it’s also a violation of the Fourth Amendment to the Constitution apparently is no concern to the ex-law school professor.

I could go on, of course, but let’s be honest, people. When have any of these clowns showed any concern for your privacy or for the Constitution either? Rogers and Ruppersberger are the NSA’s congressional pet poodles, men who’ve repeatedly lied to us.

And Obama is hardly any better. But one thing all three share in common is a recognition that the Patriot Act, one of the pillars of the surveillance state, is due to expire in the next eighteen months. If it does, all of this nonsense would have to end, at least theoretically, until a new law could be debated and put in place.

They don’t want that to happen. They want to pass new legislation now under the guise of reform that will actually continue the spying and the rape of the Constitution; and now they’ve come to realize the only way to do that is to sell you on how concerned they are about your privacy rights.

If you believe these people, I have a bridge to sell. These are the people who have damaged America; the people who have made us less safe and who can’t be trusted to do the right thing. At least that’s my view.

The bottom line is I would urge you to be cautious, very cautious, as you read all these stories. A large part of the media is part of the very same Washington cabal that foisted all of this shit on us and they’re adept at the language of 1984:


That’s what they’re counting on, especially that last slogan. I would encourage you not to fall for any of it. These people are liars. They can’t be trusted. And if you take what they say on faith, don’t be surprised to find yourself fooled again.

As the Guardian put it: “The White House and the House Intelligence Committee leaked dueling proposals last night that are supposedly aimed at ending the mass collection of all Americans’ phone records. But the devil is in the details, and when it comes to the National Security Agency’s unique ability to twist and distort the English language, the devil tends to wrap his horns around every word.”

Or, to put it more simply, if their lips move, they’re lying to you.